About God, the Father
Probably my advancing age and more time to ponder life led
me to thinking about my origins this morning, of which I know very little. Yes, I know who my parents were, one was my
“mom” b/c I lived with her and her mother, my granny, and my grandfather,
granddad. I didn’t actually have a dad;
I had a father. What happened and when,
I’ve never known, except one answer from
his sister, “All I know is that when he came back from the War, he said he
wasn’t in love with her.” I want to dig
back into anything I can find now and figure out when the divorce came about –
could it have even been before I was born?
Don’t know for certain, but I think they were together for at least a
while when I was a baby. But I have no memory of my father ever living with us. I did adore his side of the family which
included many aunts, uncles, and cousins, but it was infrequent that I got to
see them.
My mother worked and granny and granddad were really more my
mom and dad, except that they’d deny that and never would completely step into
that role. So my *mom* was distracted
and my grandparents were fairly “hands-off.”
That worked well for me a lot of
time, or so I thought.
Now, with
advancing age and with only distant relatives on my father’s side that I failed
to keep up with, I wish I knew more about that early history, more as to why my
mother wasn’t really mothering and why my father didn’t play a larger role in
my life.
Here’s why I’m
writing this – b/c God entered into my train of thoughts this morning!
I was listening
to K-Love radio and something in a song they were playing opened me up to this,
I think, word from God – that my genetics and origins were in Him. The train of thought was basically that the
gene pool began with Adam and Eve and, yes, there was a physiological transfer of genes
and such via my mother and father back to the first pair of human beings. BUT GOD
was the actual Creator of those human traits and genetics and He is My Father,
not just spiritually and by faith, but by
actual genetics b/c He created the first genes. Exactly why that should
lift my spirit this morning, I’m not certain, but it made me quite joyous.
This little
journal entry may sound strange, but these were thoughts I did not generate
myself but were given to me and they made me so happy b/c the good news is
that I do have a Father who really wanted me!
And everything about me – all my traits physical and spiritual I have
inherited from, by and through Him. ALL the things about me trace back to when He
created Adam and Eve, my great, great, great…..grandmother and grandfather. Wow!
March 7, 2013
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